RacHeL
4th of Sep..
just a gurl tat has her own identity with loads of thoughts as well as memories that can never be forgotten nor ignored.. someone with the passion to dance n just let loose once in a while, hoping for a miricle, a chance to shine thorough the darkness.. of course, i have people who lov me for who i am... loads of loving cousins, family n friends.. therfore, im blessed. nothin iz perfect, i don't deny. i don't ask for much, even though life can seem really unfair sometimes.. i am not hating it, but trying to lov everythin i have.. =)
Desires
wad will a 18 year old gurl desire for?
basically EVERYTHING she can get her hands on..
i want a life.
a hot body..
a million bucks..
experience snow..
owning a private beach..
owning a pair of Monolos..
to eat all the food i LOVE.
ppl to love me for who i m..
getting to know new people..
back-stabers to back off me..
a one way trip to Mauratious..
loads of prezzies on my b'day..
having all the clothes i adore..
a perfectly done medi, pedicure..
loads of cute guys for me to droll on..
a chance to dance in front of millions..
get to travel the WHOLE world backpacking..
a teen star falling head over heels with me..
an unlimited flow of Ben and Jerry's ice-cream..
a prada bag. *fendi iz oso an acceptable choice..
a decent job which doesn't involve child labour. *YeaSh*
owning a guy who pampers n LuRve me4 who im as my bf.. *wink*
sometimes i don't really get the reason why ppl wanna go n make things so complicated? they're really selfish as they don't realise the ppl around them who r involved in a way or another.. im 16.. i might not have seen the real thing, as they all say.. i juz don't get the reason they're doin tis.. it's full of drama and not forgetting the "acting" they've done so far.. it's all so FAKE. it's lyk.. they feel all so desperate n all.. blaming the whole world except themselves for the fate tat wasn't meant to b.. sobbing about the sadness in thier lifes... how they cried and suffered in the darkness.. they're juz pushing the blame n resposiblity to the others.. n then when the storm iz gone, they seem2 go back to their normal self n juz laugh about all those that happened.. n there's somethin else to persuade.. unlike wad they claimed b4 where it's only gonna b tat one and only.. it's all an act unsuccessfully done by a poor actor, i'd say.. there's juz so much fakeness nowadays.. to b honest, i don't really noe how 2 determine who's all rite n who's not.. it's somethin really unpredictable.. unreachable by the understanding of humans.. but of course, there's oso ppl who actually care bout ppl in tis world.. u noe who u are.. so do i.. some stuff r best left unwritten.. juz let ur true feelings shine through, u'd b blessed.. for ever and always. =)
Saturday, January 06, 2007
it's already the 6h day of year 2007.. tis year skool starts really early.. if i haven't remembered wrongly, it should b on the 3rd.. i think. it's fri nite n i FINALLY have some precious time juz the computer n i.. alone. i was really bz the last few days.. so i didn't really post tat much compared to when it was during da holiz... =) anywayz, i wanna wish every1 out there a "HappY BeLaTed NeW YeaR !!!"
i actually spent the last few hours of 2006 in the city of cats, kuching. =) went there4 a ballet workshop.. 5 gurls who seem2 b energatic 24/7, 1 hotel bedroom, 5days.. mess it all up 2gether.. **PooFF ! it was so much FUN.. i simply LovV all my dancing frens.. got 2 noe them much better n guess wad?? we're ALL shopaholics.. wakakakaka.. there were a few who juz CAN'T stop buyin stuff.. so @ the end of da day.. 5th day of the trip, i was left wif 55cents.. no kidding !! i was lyk.. wad the !^*%$ ??????? i did window shopping.. it was tough, but i managed 2 pull through.. ate maggie mee tat i bought from da shopping centre a day b4 4 my breakfast.. skipped lunch.. went 2 da airport n borrowed $2.80 from my fren to buy myself a pack a cold-pack-
nasi-lemak... ( nasi lemak worth $2.80) im pathetic, i noe. life can be SO interesting sometimes.. =) i was thinking to do some street-act stuff wif a cap on da floor n hoping some guy wif loads of cash dropped all coz i simply did TOO well.. well, tat's fantasy. n im in reality.. oh wadever. *eyes rolling.....
( nasi lemak worth $2.80)