i think.. it's the first birthday I've ever cried. it's a really horrible feeling.Something, i shouldn't be feeling if i was loved. im left alone, again.
it's only 1am. just an hour after and i am really unhappy. unhappy with the things in life, unhappy with the fact that things always don't go in the way i'd like it to be. i can't seem to please everyone. i can't seem to make a stand for myself, to do what i think it's right. i simply love them all too much to hurt a party.
i do wonder at times.. izzit fate or izzit meant to be? am i just unfortunate or am i just someone lousy to be with?
if someone says he loves me, how would i really know it's true?
if someone says he'd never make me cry, should i really believe him?
i really can't understand myself well, why am i still the one in tears?
ironically, ppl say the happiest day in a year would most likely be your birthday. for me, it ain't. not now. not today.
i had a suprise.
i had one.
guess i don't deserve, do i?
